A nightmare come true . . .
Years ago, a fifteen-year-old girl was abducted by a monster. Although she managed to escape, her tormenter was never caught. So the girl was given a new home, a new name . . . and the determination to save other foster kids from suffering similar horrors.
FBI Agent Becca Lange is in the middle of a credit card fraud investigation when she’s faced with her worst nightmare: a serial killer, van Gogh—given the name because he removed his victims’ ears—has resurfaced. Back in the nineties, van Gogh tortured, then killed several young foster girls. Becca was almost one of them.
Over the years, Becca’s been keeping her own investigation going. So when the police come to her for help, she’s more than ready to do what it takes to put van Gogh behind bars—even if it means working with Connor Warren, the easy-going cop whose attentions she’s been avoiding. Connor is too charming, too good-looking, too . . . tempting. He makes Becca want things she can never have. And might never have . . .
Because van Gogh isn’t finished with Becca yet. He’s been searching for her all these years. And now that he’s found her, he’s got a plan to keep her . . . forever.
Susan Sleeman is a best-selling author of clean read and inspirational romantic suspense books. Awards include the 2013
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Chapter One
SHE WAS GOING to die today.
He’d all but
promised that. Now it was time, and he was coming for her, moving quickly
above. His heavy footsteps headed for the cellar door, the solid footfalls
confident, but uneven.
He’d developed a
limp. Funny. She hadn’t noticed that until now.
Death, just over
the horizon, sharpened her senses, she supposed.
Or was it the
dark, the complete pitch black of the windowless space? Her mind was shrouded
in pain and despair, her senses hyper-alert, the smells and sounds crisp and
vivid. The musty scent of the basement. An old oil furnace in the corner
emitting a metallic smell. His footsteps in the distance, growing closer as he
headed for the cellar door.
For her.
Painful
desperation swallowed everything around her.
Please,
please, please don’t let him do this.
She heard each
groan of the house. Each creak of the floor. Heard him reach the cellar door.
Her heart kicked
hard, sounding a loud echo in her chest.
A key slipped
into the deadbolt at the top of the stairs with a firm snick. She could picture the shiny new lock he’d dragged her past
the first night. Remembered her hands clutching at anything to stay
aboveground, her nails breaking as they scratched to take purchase. Raw and
ragged now.
Then the
descent. Down the rickety wooden steps. Kicking. Fighting. The fist to her jaw.
Seeing stars before her vision cleared. The light burning bright, revealing
metal castings stacked on old rotting shelves. The shackles she now bore around
her wrists lying limp on the scarred linoleum floor, waiting for her.
The jars. No,
stop. She didn’t want to think about them.
She’d thought of
little else since she escaped from this madman who, in the late nineties, had
pretended online to be Adam Smith, a man in his early twenties who’d developed
a crush on her though she was only fifteen. She should have known better than
to believe him, even when he’d given her a photo that showed how handsome he
was. But as a foster kid, she’d craved love desperately, and he seemed to want
to give it.
So she’d gone to
meet him, but it turned out the picture he’d sent her had been retouched. His
face was grotesquely scarred, and he soon had her handcuffed. Her foster
sister, Lauren, had figured he was bad news so she’d followed, and he’d
abducted the two of them. But they’d both eventually escaped.
The rusty hinges
on the door groaned open like those on an old coffin. Only a stairway separated
them.
Bile rose up her
parched throat, gagging her. She swallowed hard and strained against the coarse
rope digging into the oozing sores circling her wrists. Days of struggling had
left them open. Maybe festering. But that didn’t matter. What mattered was the
door groaning open. The air around her stirring, dragging a putrid current into
the vortex. She retched at the smell of her own body. The stench of her own
fear nearly overpowered everything. She hadn’t showered in four days or had
access to a bathroom for as long.
She was
disgusting.
She’d die like
this. Be found like this. Would her family have to see her this way? Identify
her?
God, please,
no, she begged. Spare
them.
A shadow of
light filtered through the open doorway. His foot hit the top tread with a
thud. Then the next, each step an earthshaking roll of thunder in her ears. His
flashlight bobbed on the stairs. Quick circles of light moved down like a
slinky before jerking back up. She saw his foot now in an arc of light. A big
work boot. Size twelve or larger. Heavy lug soles, worn and scarred. His jeaned
leg came next. Then a flannel work shirt. Red, she thought, but the light
suddenly danced ahead.
He reached the
bottom. His boot struck the linoleum with a solid thump. Not a word came from
his mouth, but his flashlight spoke for him. Sliding across the space.
Searching.
She recoiled.
Dug her heels into the floor. Scooted back and tried to cover her nakedness by
drawing her knees into her chest.
Nowhere to
go.
She needn’t
worry about her family seeing her. No one would find her here. He’d chosen the
perfect location, an abandoned metal fabrication plant with rows and rows of
buildings. Some were in use. Others had fallen into decay like this one.
He snapped the
dangling string overhead. Light from a bare bulb flooded the area.
"Hello, Molly,”
he said, as if they were meeting at a social event. But this wasn’t social—he
was coming to kill her.
Her eyes ached
from the sudden brightness. She blinked. Thought to keep her eyes closed and
avoid seeing her killer’s face one more time.
Hadn’t she seen
him enough in her dreams since she’d escaped his capture two decades ago? In
nightmares replaying the torture of long ago. Now she was his captive once
again, facing him for the last four days, his torment a blur of pain.
Yet, she
couldn’t look away. She didn’t have the nerve to ignore her own death. She had
to see him. To see the end of her life in his eyes.
She blinked hard
until she could focus. His face was a mirror of the one in her dreams, except
the passing years had etched wrinkles like a road map across his skin. The
dark, dead eyes hadn’t changed. Hadn’t dulled. His chin was angular and covered
in graying whiskers. Scars puckered his cheeks, and his nose was nothing more
than a red knob, as if an afterthought.
Memories of
their first meeting sixteen years ago came flooding back. The same revulsion
curdled her stomach. It wasn’t the scars, the stub of a nose. She could handle
the deformities from severe burns. It was the sneer of his lips and vile hatred
in his gaze. The steady stare that never wavered.
Like now. His
gaze sought her out, a hunter looking for prey. He smiled. Wide, toothy, a hint
of contempt keeping his lips tight. "I hope you’ve had enough time to think and
give me what I want.”
She couldn’t
abide his stare, and dragged her gaze away. It landed on the shelf. Nine mason
jars were lined up, a set of human ears in all but two of them, preserved in
clear liquid. The jars were labeled with the numbers one through nine.
Detectives had dubbed this madman Van Gogh for his penchant for removing his
victims’ ears. There had been only five jars the last time he’d captured her.
Now there were four more. The jars marked four and five were empty. Waiting.
She wasn’t surprised to see those jars. Not when she and Lauren had both
escaped. She’d figured he’d come after them again, even though they’d both done
their best to disappear.
"Well, Molly.
Where is Lauren?” he asked, his tone insistent and threatening.
Lauren. Shortly after Molly had overpowered him
to escape, she’d seen a news report indicating that Lauren had died in a car
crash. But Molly didn’t buy the story. At first, it seemed real, but the police
slipped up on one little detail that only Molly would know, proving the
detectives had faked Lauren’s death and given her a new identity.
Rebecca
Lange. The regal name
fit the current-day Lauren, a woman who had become a defender of foster
children and a top-notch FBI agent. It was the name she’d always dreamt of
having.
"Where’s
Lauren?” Van Gogh asked again, this time removing Molly’s gag.
She gathered
what little moisture she had in her mouth and spit at him.
He lurched back,
anger darkening eyes she didn’t think could get any blacker. He looked up at
the ceiling. Took a few breaths. "Don’t worry, Mother. I know she’s gone off
the deep end. She will be cleansed today. Her funeral will draw Lauren out. I
can cleanse both of them, and my collection will finally be complete.”
He often talked
to his mother who was never present, so this wasn’t new. But Molly had never
been successful in getting him to explain the cleansing ritual.
"Mother says
it’s time to get you dressed.” He opened a box sitting on the shelf and lifted
out a virginal white nightgown. "You remember this, don’t you, my pet? You will
be cleansed and free. Too bad you won’t help me find Lauren so she can know the
joy of cleansing sooner.”
He leaned close,
an ugly smile parting his lips. The whisper of his breath, the acrid smell of
his unwashed body, made her stomach roil. She couldn’t speak. And she wouldn’t,
even if she did know where Lauren lived. She’d never betray the trust of her
foster sister.
Never.
If she did, he’d
go after Lauren and kill her. Molly wouldn’t let that happen.
"Let’s get you
cleaned up.” He went to the corner and ran a bucket of water, then put it on a
table near the sink. He shoved a knife with sharp teeth lining the edge into a
sheath on his belt. The knife that had once carved into her body, leaving the
number four. Into Lauren, who bore the number five.
Humming, he
crossed the room to stare at Molly while snapping on a pair of latex gloves.
"You really are a mess, aren’t you?”
She thought to
try to cover herself, to maintain her dignity. But after the last few days,
what dignity did she have left?
He unlocked the
shackles, moved her out of her filth and toward the table. She fought, kicked,
but after five days without food and little water, she was too weak to make a
difference. He bathed her, each touch of the cloth making her want to vomit.
Once in the demure nightgown, she lay back, defeated, on the table—his altar
stained with blood—where he bound her to cold shackles mounted on the corners.
"It’s time,
Molly. Tell me or...” His evil smile took his words and
buried them in the recesses of the room. He lifted his knife. High. Advanced.
His eyes burned with the intensity of fire. He slid his fingers over her
ear—gently, almost tenderly, then suddenly backed away.
Was he going to
let her live another day? Hope fluttered in her chest.
He crossed the
room. Lifted jar number four, the liquid sloshing as he returned to her. He blew
the dust from the rusted lid. Fine particles lingered in the beam of light
before dissipating in the stale air. He held the knife between his teeth, his
eyes gleaming.
He started
unscrewing the lid, slowly, each twist feeling like a nail in Molly’s coffin.
He set the open jar on the floor, a pungent odor smelling like pickles floated
up to her nose. Fear coursed through her body.
Lauren.
Remember Lauren.
He slipped his
hand into his pocket and two pearl earrings emerged. She fixed her gaze on the
burn scars crawling over his hands, not on the earring. He inserted the first
one into her left ear. The piercing stud ripped her skin, making her feel as if
she were being nailed to a cross. To her death.
This was it, for
sure. The end.
She held her
breath. He placed the second earring and stood back, his eyes now vacant and
his mind somewhere else. Somewhere his earring ritual had taken him.
His breathing
grew rapid and shallow, his chest barely moving. Eyes glazed over, he raised
the knife. His smile, teeth rotted and yellowing, was the last thing she saw as
he bent closer.
"Tell me or not,
my pet, it doesn’t matter. The news coverage of my return will be legendary,
and your death will bring Lauren to me. She won’t miss your funeral.”
The knife
pricked her skin. Her heart seized and refused to beat. She ignored it. Ignored
everything, her resolve still in place.
She’d die before
letting this butcher near someone she loved.
And, as he’d
promised... it would be today.
THERE. HE WAS OUT of commission, doubled over
in severe pain.
Perfect. It was just what Agent Rebecca Lange
wanted—her boss, Rolland Sulyard, the Assistant Special Agent in Charge of the
FBI Portland’s office, on his way to the hospital.
She spun and
shot out her leg in a roundhouse kick, landing her foot solidly where his
kidney would be located, sending the red heavy bag in a swirling rotation. She
recovered, imagined his face on the worn bag, and fired a jab to his nose.
Take that,
Sulyard. No one shuts down my investigation.
"You trying to kill
that thing, Lange?” a beefy local police officer asked as he passed by.
She shot him a
quick look and swiped with the back of her arm at sweat running down her face,
but didn’t bother to respond.
"You should give
it a rest before you stroke out,” he added, then laughed as he headed for the
locker room.
Maybe it was
time for her to hit the showers, too. No. Anger still boiled in her gut. Thirty
minutes at the bag and she was still mad. Good and mad. At Sulyard. At herself.
He’d shut down
the credit card identity theft investigation that she’d been heading up for the
agency’s Cyber Action Team. Months of hard work wasted. Just like that, in one
fell swoop. She had yet to tell the team. She dreaded it. Especially telling
her co-agents and friends Kaitlyn Murdock and Nina Brandt. Then there was the
new intern, Taylor Andrews. She’d take it especially hard, and Becca’s
reputation with the newest team member would be tarnished before it even got
off the ground.
Worse yet,
victims were going without justice due to her failure. She should have worked
harder. Smarter. Done better. If she didn’t help those in need, who would?
She slammed a
fist into the bag again. Another. Then another. Bam, bam, bam.
"Remind me never
to make you mad.” The male voice came from behind her.
Her brain
stalled, and her hands stilled.
What was he doing
here? He was the last person she wanted to see today. A perfect addition to a
perfectly dismal day.
She took several
deep breaths and let them out. He’d think she was just winded, but in fact, she
needed a clear head to face Connor Warren, a detective for the Portland Police
Bureau. She had this thing for him when she was in no position in her life to
have a thing for any guy.
Another few
cleansing breaths, then she pivoted and found his gaze pinned on her, as she
expected. Her heart did a quick somersault, and she chastised herself for
responding.
He must have
noticed her discomfort as he smirked. "Do you mind dropping those gloves so we
can talk?”
She looked down
to discover her hands were still raised. She swatted at hair stuck to her face
and lowered the gloves. "What’re you doing here, Connor?”
He grinned, his
smile lopsided and cute at the same time, turning her insides to mush.
Seriously, how did he do that to her every time she saw him?
This mutual
thing had started when they’d met two years ago on an investigation. It was
there every time they laid eyes on each other, which was often. Too often for
Becca’s liking. His partner, Sam Murdock, married her friend and Cyber Action
Team member Kait, so Becca ran in to Connor all the time.
He tipped his
head at the bag. "Whoever you were trying to pummel, you succeeded.”
As usual, he
avoided her question and went off on his own tangent while he let his gaze take
her in from head to toe.
Fine. Let him
look. She would too. She ran her gaze over his six-foot-two body, lingering on
his shirt molded to hard pecs and biceps. His auburn hair was more red than
brown and cut short. His jaw was square, and his eyes, when he wasn’t smiling,
held an intensity she understood all too well.
His grin
widened. He got that she was into him. He’d have to be blind not to see it, but
then, he probably had women taking a second and third look all the time. Shoot,
she’d taken a whole lot more than a second look over the years, much to her
annoyance. And it had to stop now.
"So, are you
here to join the gym?” she asked, hoping the answer was a big fat no. She
didn’t want him here. She found her relaxation at the gym the way many women
found it in a spa. The words relaxationand Connor had nothing in common.
He shook his
head and lifted a folder clutched in his hand. "I have information on a case
Sam said you were taking lead on.”
"Oh?” She made
sure to play down her interest to keep him from wanting to stay.
"He said you’ve
been working a credit card fraud ring in the area.”
Right. The
investigation that Sulyard just shut down.
"I think I can
help you with it,” he said.
"Oh, yeah? How?”
He looked
around, then lowered his voice. "I’m working a homicide where a man was
murdered for his credit cards. At least, that’s our theory right now. I tailed
a suspect to an apartment in the northeast and watched the place for a few
days. Struck out on finding anything that could give me probable cause to
enter, but it looks like I stumbled on your theft ring’s base of operation. I
took some photos you might want to see.”
Pulling off her
gloves and tucking them under her arm, she stepped closer. She took the folder,
making sure to avoid touching him. She started flipping through the photos of
teenagers carrying shopping bags taken outside a rundown apartment complex.
"Did these kids all go to the same apartment?”
He nodded. "We
checked the lease, but as you might expect, the ID was bogus. The manager said
the rent was paid in cash three months in advance, which for that neighborhood,
is a great deal for the manager, so he didn’t ask any questions. He did
describe the guy who rented it. Five-ten. Dark hair. Late forties.”
"Seriously? It
could be just about anyone with that description.”
Connor gestured
at the folder. "You won’t find him in the pictures. No one over the age of
twenty ever showed up at the apartment.”
"Not surprising.
Credit card fraud crews are often recruited from runaways and homeless teens,
and it’s rare to find the mastermind behind the operation.” Which was why
Sulyard had shut down her investigation. It was going nowhere.
"Exactly how do
they work this scam?” Connor asked.
She might not
want to talk to him, but she was always happy to explain how this kind of fraud
worked. "It starts with a ringleader who obtains stolen credit card information
from the Internet. He then uses an embossing machine to make new cards, and
recruits runaways to make fraudulent purchases at local retailers. These groups
have been moving up and down the I-5 corridor and we’ve really been trying to
bust one of them. If we catch the kids, we’re hoping they’ll flip on their
ringleader. Did you get any of their license plates?”
"They took the
bus. TriMet and street cams didn’t help ID them either.”
Becca went back
to the photos to withdraw five pictures for Connor. "I can ID these five right
now. If we combine your information with mine, I should have enough to get a
search warrant.”
"Exactly what I
was hoping for. We can work together. If we give you the ID ring’s evidence
you’re after, you can probably get us in there. Then, hopefully, I’ll find
something related to the homicide.”
Right, they’d have to work together. Her heart
dropped.
"It’ll be a
win/win.” His eyes, bright with enthusiasm, locked on her, daring her to say
no. She didn’t flinch under his gaze, but she was just a moment away from
turning tail and running. She didn’t like what he could do to her insides.
Didn’t like it at all. And working with him on an investigation? What would happen
then?
No, she didn’t
need that. She didn’t need him.
"I have all my
information in the car.” He gestured outside, but kept those steely blue eyes
locked on her. "We could head to your office to iron out details for the
warrant.”
She swallowed
hard under his continued gaze. "How about you give me the files, and I let you
know when the warrant has been approved?”
"Yeah, right.”
He rolled his eyes and widened his stance. "Either we collaborate on getting
the warrant and serve it together, or you keep punching that bag, because your
case is going nowhere.”
She gaped at
him. "You’d give up a lead on a homicide case, just like that?”
"Nah,” he said
with a half-smile that crooked up in the corner. "Just like I know you would
never turn your back on a lead for your investigation. Which means you’ll end
up working with me. So, why fight it?”
He had her,
right where he wanted her, and she felt herself caving. If they went straight
to her office, she could get the information to Sulyard before he left for the
day, and her case would be back on track.
"Okay, we’ll do
it,” she agreed, hoping they might actually be able to handle a professional
relationship. "But I need to take a quick shower.”
"I wasn’t
planning to say anything, but since you brought it up, you are a mess.”
He let that gaze trail over her again, his eyes heating up. "Not that I mind a
woman all sweaty from taking her frustration out on a bag. I find it kind of
hot, actually.”
Her heart gave a
rebellious flutter. So much for the professional. One second, and it was gone.
She shoved the folder into his chest and grabbed her gloves, thinking for a
moment of wiping the look from his face with a well-placed punch.
She took a
breath instead. "You can wait for me in the coffee shop across the street.”
She wouldn’t
hang around for his rebuttal. Why bother? It would be a smart-aleck quip that
she didn’t need to hear. She headed for the locker room. She felt his eyes on
her as she walked.
Fine. Let him
look. She hoped he enjoyed what he was seeing. He needed to get it out of his
system so they could collaborate on this investigation as professionals.
"Yeah, right,”
she muttered under her breath as she swung into the locker room. "Maybe you
should listen to your own advice for once.”
Chapter Two
IN THE FBI’S WAR room, Connor swirled
the last dregs of his coffee in the paper cup and didn’t try to hide his study
of Becca as she presented her warrant request to her supervisor, Assistant
Special Agent in Charge Roland Sulyard. They’d been talking for fifteen minutes,
and Connor thought she was making progress.
Talking,
shoot. They’d been
arguing in the hallway, but Becca didn’t back down. She’d changed into a boring
navy business suit with a tailored white blouse. Her eyes were wide, her stance
firm, and she wore her usual fierce "defender of the downtrodden” expression.
Some might think she was haughty. He knew she was simply passionate about her
work.
He’d seen that
expression often enough—showing her need to help those who couldn’t help
themselves. That was her motto. And she wasn’t straying from it today.
Sulyard took a
step closer to her. He was six-four, wore a black power suit, and his bald head
gleamed in the light. His voice was low and controlled. "This is it, Lange. You
fail to develop any solid evidence, and I won’t hesitate to shut down the
investigation like I did this morning.”
So that was why
Becca had been beating the bag in the gym. He could still see her—her
body-hugging tank top plastered to curves she usually hid under one of her
infernal suits, and faded blue shorts revealing legs as long as he’d imagined
them to be. Man, she was all curves and silky skin. He tried to sound like he
was kidding when he told her it was hot, but he was deadly serious. He did find
it hot. Maybe not with other women, but everything Becca did got his blood
boiling.
"Don’t let me
down,” Sulyard said. After a long look, he turned and walked away.
Becca slipped
back into the room, her eyes alive with their upcoming challenge. "We’re a go.
Judge Obrien is already on standby for a different warrant, so Sulyard will
submit this one along with it.”
Connor fixed
what he hoped was a casual gaze on her. "Sulyard shut down your investigation,
huh?”
She lifted her
shoulders and stared at him. "We’re back on track. As long as your lead isn’t a
wild goose chase. If it is...” The blue in her eyes darkened,
her expression judging his merit.
He sat forward.
"You doubt my intel?”
"No, but the
crew could have made you and moved on.”
"They didn’t
make me,” he said, irritated that she thought him incompetent enough to let
some pimply-faced teenager catch his surveillance.
"We still need
to act fast. This group never stays in one place long, and could be on the move
soon.”
"Then let me map
out the location for you, and we can form a plan.” He grabbed a legal pad to
start sketching the apartment complex, parking lots, and adjoining roads. She
bent over him, her clean, fresh scent from the shower instantly grabbing his
attention.
He didn’t need
to be thinking about her like this. Didn’t need to keep flirting with her when
she wasn’t interested. She was into him, that was patently clear, but she
didn’t have time for a man in her life. She was too busy saving the world all
on her own. And he was a fool for trying anything when he didn’t really want to
get involved with a woman again either.
He sat up and
she took a quick step back. He slid the drawing over in front of the next
chair, forcing her to move even farther away so he could concentrate.
He tapped the
drawing while she took a seat. "Apartment’s on the second floor here. Patio
slider on the back here. We’ll need someone to cover the rear exit.”
She nodded. "You
can do that while I take the front.”
He gave her an
as-if look. "I’ll call in reinforcements, and we’ll go in together.”
She appraised him
for a moment. "Who did you have in mind?”
"Sam.”
"I’m good with
Sam joining us.” She sounded amenable, but suspicion was lodged in her eyes.
"I’ve asked our intern to tag along.”
"You’re kidding,
right? An intern?” He dropped the pencil on the table. "This is important,
Becca. We don’t want a green-behind-the-ears recruit screwing this up.”
She eyed him.
"Taylor may be fresh out of Quantico, but she’s far from a green recruit. She’s
served on an FBI Evidence Recovery Team for years, and has seen more than most
law enforcement professionals.”
"So she’s seen
the aftermath of man’s inhumanity to man. That still doesn’t mean she isn’t
green as far as serving a warrant goes.”
She planted her
hands on her hips. "We may not make nearly as many arrests as you do, but we’ve
been around the block a few times. We can both handle this.”
"I was kidding.”
He wished they could just relax around each other. This tension between them,
hanging just below the surface, ready to erupt at any time, sapped all of his
energy.
She didn’t
return his smile. "You won’t terrorize Taylor, then? Because we need her. With
the rise in cyber intrusions, we’ve added a slot on our Cyber Action Team.
After shadowing me for a few weeks, she’ll take that job.”
"Another geek in
town. Just what we need.” He laughed again, but he had to force it out this
time.
She stared at
him. "I need you to take this seriously.”
Right. Serious.
Her middle name.
He stood and
looked into her eyes for a moment, something he’d much rather do than go serve
a warrant, even if it was for one of his investigations. But she was
right. He had a job to do, and despite her considering him too laid-back at
times, he never shirked his responsibilities. He wouldn’t start now.
RESTRAINT.
REGINALD Zwicky needed to learn restraint. Restraint would have kept Molly
alive until she gave up Lauren’s address. He paced the basement, his mood as
dark as the dank space. Even that earthy, metallic scent of blood couldn’t
erase his black mood.
He’d screwed up.
Let his emotions get the best of him. How? He’d learned patience, or at least
he thought he had. He’d practiced restraint all these years, honoring Mother’s
request to stop cleansing girls in the nineties with the taste of blood fresh
in his mouth. He’d wanted to continue, but no, she’d seen the news report that
he’d failed and a girl had gotten away. She’d beaten him until he’d told her
about both Lauren and Molly escaping from him and admitted that Molly had
attempted to seduce him. He’d fallen prey to it and they’d struggled. She’d caught
him off guard, and managed to get away. Then Mother had nagged and nagged him
to find them until his ears nearly bled with her harping. At least it was a
change. Usually, her sharp fingernails would pierce the tender cartridge,
dragging him across the room to his closet.
"Don’t you see,
Mother?” he said, her spirit still living with him though she had passed away
six months ago. He pointed at Molly’s virginal body in her gown. "I found her.
For you. Cleansed her. She’ll lead us to Lauren. Then you can truly rest.”
He waited for
his mother to answer, but the building was quiet, save for the rats running in
the rafters above.
He kicked an
empty oil can across the room, the sound ringing through the space.
What a
despicable place. He couldn’t even leave a body here overnight. Not with the
rats. He’d had to construct a wire mesh cage to keep them from tearing apart
the bodies. It was especially needed for Molly. The police had to see her
peaceful repose to understand his mission.
He went to the
stained porcelain sink, took the Lava soap his mother insisted he use, and
scrubbed his hands. Waves of red swirled from his fingers and down the drain.
"Are they clean,
Reginald?” Mother had always asked before inspection. If he’d failed to meet
her expectations, she’d scoured his hands with the pumice soap, leaving his
skin raw.
"You’ll be proud
of me, Mother. The police will be in awe of everything you have trained me to
do.”
He imagined them
finding Molly and being impressed with his ability to cleanse. He wanted to do
more. His body fairly vibrated with the need to continue his life’s work. To
rush right out and find another girl and offer her the same purification. But
he couldn’t. Not yet. He had to lie low until Lauren showed up for Molly’s
funeral. Then he’d follow her. Take her. Evaluate her. If she was still pure,
he’d make her his for life. If not, he’d cleanse her. It all depended on how
she’d lived these past sixteen years.
Until then, he’d
have to forget the lingering taste of blood, forget that nothing could assuage
the desire for more. He’d gone nearly sixteen years without killing. Years
without ever laying a hand on another young girl. Years of listening to his
mother’s teachings. Enduring her discipline so he could achieve nirvana. She’d
been his guide and spiritual leader until her sudden death from a heart attack
six months ago.
Now he was a
man, on his own. A disciple. Ready to save the girls.
"A man or a
loser?” Billy’s voice whispered through Reginald’s mind.
"Be quiet,”
Reginald told his childhood friend.
Billy was
everything an imaginary friend needed to be. He’d gotten Reginald through many
terrifying incidents, but he’d turned into a nagging voice that never left
Reginald’s head for long.
"You’re a
loser.” Billy’s tone was now high and nasally, mixed with irritation and
judgment. "A madman like the news media claimed in the nineties. Sick and
depraved.”
"No.” Reginald
clamped his hands over his ears. "I’m not. I’m their savior. The one who
cleanses. I saved their souls. I gave them the peace they need.”
"Then why hide
it? Why not proclaim it to the world?”
"Humility, you
fool. Didn’t you listen to Mother all these years? We must be humble.”
Billy started
lecturing him, and Reginald tightened his hands over his ears until Billy went
silent the way he always did when Reginald spoke unadulterated truths. But he’d
be back. He always came back. Questioning. Pressuring. Trying to get Reginald
to ignore his mother’s teachings.
Except during
the ritual. Then there was peace. Blessed peace. Like the girls must feel. A
release to a higher place.
Like Molly. At
rest. He lifted her jar. Admired the curve of her ears and the glow of the
pearls. "Perfect, Mother. Just like you taught me.”
He placed the
jar on the shelf, then ran his fingers along the others. There. Excellent.
Number four, filled and in place where it belonged, at last. No longer would
Molly suffer in this world from the base physical longings she couldn’t
control. He was glad for the simple way to help her. A pair of earrings. The
symbol of purity and chastity. Of humility and innocence as his mother had
first told him, her switch following each word, after she caught him with one
of the fast girls at school who would sleep with anyone. Even him, with the
twisted trail of scars running over his body.
Mother had been
furious.
"Purity,
Reginald,” she had snapped, dragging him by the ear and forcing him to the
floor in the closet. "It’s a virtue you must learn, must keep, until you find
the equally pure woman you will marry. I know it’s hard. Especially at fifteen
with all those hormones rushing through your body. Let me help you learn
control as my father taught me. Your father could never grasp the concept of
control. It was the reason he had to leave us.”
She ripped his
shirt from his back, took a tighter hold on his ear, and cracked the belt
across his naked skin. The pain bit into his body, racing along nerve endings,
begging him to cry out. But he wouldn’t. Didn’t. Just as he hadn’t during the
fire. She would see it as his carnal nature calling out, and she’d keep going,
crack after crack until it was extinguished.
Now he was the
master and it had been worth it. Superb in every way. Untouchable, as long as
he remained smart and in control. And he was smart. His control still needed
perfecting, however. Molly had proved that.
"See. I told
you, you’re a loser,” Billy said.
Reginald ignored
him and stepped around the space, looking for anything he’d missed that could
lead the police to his doorstep. At the shelves on the far side of the wall, he
knelt on the ground to shine a flashlight into the dark recesses.
There. In the
corner. A hair thingy Allie—his lovely wonderful girl number seven—had worn.
Powder blue, the same color of the eyes that had stared up at him for so long.
He carefully retrieved it and stuffed it into his pocket. He’d been careless.
Now he’d have to go back to the clearing to add it to the bag of clothing he’d
buried last week. He’d kept it all for a long time. Touched it. Smoothed it
over his skin when the urge grew too strong. But when he’d found Molly, and
then learned Lauren was alive, he knew he had to divest himself of all traces
of the other girls. For Lauren. She’d be jealous to learn he’d moved on.
Lauren.
Why had she
deceived him? Faked her death.
"And you were
stupid enough to believe it all these years,” Billy mocked.
"Everyone did.”
"But you’re
supposed to be this big guru. You should have known. Instead, you had to find
Molly, then dig up Lauren’s coffin to look for her tiny ear bones to complete
your collection.” Billy laughed. "Man, that was a day. You finding the coffin
empty. Never seen you quite so shocked.”
"Wouldn’t you be
shocked to learn she’d faked her death?”
"Nah, I’d go
with the flow.”
"That’s because
you weren’t called on to save the world like I was.” He reached into his pocket
and drew out the jeweler’s box. "But now, I know her escape was meant to be.
She’s pure. She didn’t want what Molly wanted. What the other girls wanted when
they agreed to meet me. She only came to me to save Molly. She was pure. And if
she still has that purity, she could be the one.”
He gently cupped
the box. Blue velvet with a midnight-black lining that accented his mother’s
pearls so nicely. They rested in slumber as she, too, rested. He ran a finger
over the bright white lustrous orbs. Took one out. Stroked it along his cheek.
His mother’s
pearls. A gift from her father. The finest. Worth thousands. Not that he would
sell them. They were for the woman he would marry.
Maybe Lauren,
when he found her.
"She’s alive,
Mother!” he exclaimed. "Really and truly alive.”
He wouldn’t be alone after all. Lauren was the one.
The only one.